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Name: Brittany
Location: ichichi baccabacca, Samoa
Birthday: 12/27/1985
Gender: Female
Interests: making people smile...laughing...showing God's incredible love through my insignificant little self...stargazing...traveling...church...random road trips...late night talks...writing...random acts of kindness...listening to music that i love, which is pretty much everything...laughing at myself...and of course eating:}
Occupation: Student
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Member Since:
3/5/2005
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| There is always some madness in love. But there is also always some reason in madness. I have heard many disheartening things as of late about relationships and how people are dealing with them. Too many to name. But the little girl in me still has hope that one day my prince will come. That may sound neive and stupid, but I dont care. I think the saddest thing in the world is for someone to live without having hope. Without faith, hope and love, life would not be worth living...keep hoping. God will take care of the rest.
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| It has been quite some time since i have recorded my ramblings. It is 12:42, my homework is done, and it is too late to call anyone...anymore. Oh well, for those who do not already know, here is an update on the life of Brittany Guthrie. I'm getting my hair cut tomorrow. Short...probably. My grandmoher is expected to die in two weeks.(my moms mom, not Nana to those who realllly know me) and I am at a loss as to how to handle hat situation. My mother is once again looking for me for guidance, and I (eloquently say) "I got nothin." My classes are going well this semester. Professors at Liberty are, for the most part, awesome. I feel so blessed to be at a school where we can talk about God and not be ashamed, but I also slightly envy those who can go to very liberal universities and be in the minority. I have always wanted to just stand up in a science class at, say Yale, and say, "God created the earth in 6 days. Genesis is true. All of it. And He loves you despite the fact that you will not just except the words I just said." (and then make a dramatic entry out of course) Yea. I now live in a townhouse with four amazing girls. They are teaching me things and showing me love just like sisters, and I couldnt be happier with them. We have a cute dog that looks like a chihuahua/gazelle/cinnamon bun named Rockit too, and are looking for another puppy. Preferably a boy, so that he can carry on the Guthrie name. Oh yes, my career path. I love kids and dont mind living on ramen, therefore I am going to be an elementary school teacher. I could still be wealthy, if I marry a rich man, but that is not likely either. Funny, when I was little I used to think that suburban women led boring, predictable lives. But at this point in my life, I admire the fact that this is not so. Those women, for the most part, have found a man that loves them, supports them, and has given them a home and family. They may not all drive Land Rovers and live in the nicest neighborhoods in town, but hey, they're happy. Im starting to get it. I want that. And if life continues as it has for the past 20 years, nothing in my life will be boring, and God will bless me with what I need when I need it. Until then, Ill sit here and wait. Geez do I hate that! | | |
| Sometimes I wonder why I am in college. I know it is the right thing to do, and I am meant to be here right now, but it is frustrating to think that of the thousands of dollars spent on tuition and college stuff, I have learned more in this past week than I have in three months of classes. I have been through, experienced, witnessed, and learned more things over this break than I thought were possible. I have been reunited with friends, broken apart, broken down, brought closer together, and have had my heart hurt for someone else more than once, and for many different reasons. And in the midst of all this, I have learned something. No matter what happens, no matter who leaves us, no matter what mistakes we make, well....to put it eloquently, we'll be ok. I have seen this week that the love of God far surpasses any human emotion. I cry alot in movies. Random i know, but i realized something else. Ironically,when it comes to things as vitally important as God and friends, I did not get as emotionally moved. Well I have changed. Things have been put into perspective this past week. I actually cried with joy over feeling God use me to help someone else. It is amazing to see the intricate workings of God in our lives. And at confusing times like these, I selfishly still wish I knew how it would turn out. But then how boring life would be... | | |
| Ever wish you could know the future? When I was little, I always knew that if I could have one wish it would be to know the future, as long as it was ok with God. But for some reason at this point in my life, when I am ironically the most uncertain about how my life will turn out, I have absolutely no desire to know anything about my future life. I love looking back at this time last year, remembering where and who I was, and then comparing it to now. It is unbelievable how much has changed. Some people have stayed the same, some relationships have been altered, some people I couldn't stand are now my friends, and some people whom I thought were my friends are now mere acquaintances. Hmmm...all I know is im glad that I have changed. I am glad im not the same person! (Not that old Brittany was horrid or anything, but this Brittany has just wised up a little more)
Random thought: Can you imagine how boring life would be if we knew who we would end up with? (Marrying that is) I would love to know how much time is taken up in one day just with the thoughts of..."hmm, how would my life be with him? or " He is beautiful...what would we name our first kid?! ( if u are a male, please substitute 'She' where all of my 'Hes' are. If you dont and you are still a male....wow) Ok, so I know that may seem a bit silly to you reading this, but honestly, can you say you dont do it just as much as the next hopelessly romantic person? And if you dont, congratulations. Im sure you fill up your mind with other things such as, who knows, just admit that you do. So maybe next time you get frustrated with being single or even in an uncertain relationship, or about to start one, try not to wish that you just knew if you would end up with that person or not. For the guy, it would ruin the 'thrill of the chase' because you already know who the gal is, so why pursue? And if you are a girl, know that you would miss the awkward, yet amazing time of being pursued like every girl should...
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| Pre-warning: Since i do not write on here often, i fear that you may think that when i do it must be caused by something amazingly profound or astonishingly insightful, but it is not.
I like how many people, when asked how they are doing or how there day is going, reply with a "eh" or "fine". I of course am guilty of this as often as the next guy or gal, but when i asked someone this common question today, and received this very common reply, something dawned on me. That must make God a little miffed. One might think that the very fact that we have another day with air in our lungs should add a little spring to our steps. Therefore, although I detest the mornings, I am making a vow to try my best to think of each day as nothing 'eh' or 'just fine', i want to have more amazing days. On that note, what is it that makes our days so dreary and blah? Is it routine, classes getting in the way of social things, or more importantly an attitude of indifference. Why is it that something spectacular usually has to occur in a day to make it spectacular? When i look back on this year so far, my 'amazing days' have not been days with huge significant events, but surprisingly the days that the little things happened.
My entire life, before I go to bed, I sit and think about the course of my day and usually overanalyze each reaction, remark, or facial expression with the people I encountered. I wish i did not do this. The one positive thing I can say about this nightly ritual is that it allows me to pray for each person that sticks out in my mind. I always hope that since I pray for them, that the next time I see them perhaps they will be kinder, or i will know how to react better, but that doesnt always happen. I probably waste alot of time thinking about peoples reactions, but do you ever wonder if perhaps they are going over the same thing in their mind maybe too? I bet God gets a good little chuckle at the things I overanalyze... things like, 'Well, he did this, therefore he must like me!" or "She didnt even look at me when i waved to her, I hope I didnt do anything to make her mad" or like now, "I wonder if ...well a lot of things..." Oh well, truth be told I even laugh at myself sometimes.
I have no idea if any of this will make sense, but I wish you well, and thank you for caring enough to read this mess. One last thought...enjoy all of your happy moments. they make a fine cushion for old age. Be blessed! | | |
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